Bring on the lazy summer days
It’s officially my summer and I’m feeling good. Just had my graduation party this weekend so it’s actually real. I am DONE with high school. Forever. Words cannot express my excitement! It still hasn’t fully set in, though… I feel like I’m dreaming. Haha. But I’ve been ready for this for a long time and it’s finally here. Hallelujah! God you are so good. And next week I’m going to the beach with my family. Haven’t been to the beach in a year and haven’t been on a family vacation for several years. So I am extremely excited! I am in great need of some sand between my toes. Oh, and this weekend is my cousin’s wedding. Company starts rollin’ in tomorrow. Joy to the world. Just gotta make it through this weekend and then we’re headed to the sunshine state Tuesday! Bring it on.
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"Perhaps this very instant is your time."
Louise Bogan
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"Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple."
Dr. Seuss
Decisions, Decisions, Decisions…
First of all, I had my 18th birthday this week (woot woot!). So I guess that makes me a “legal” adult. I think that’s a load of crap though because I don’t feel any different… Ha. But anyway, I am realizing more and more that now comes the time to make big decisions. May is just a few days away which means it is almost the month that I graduate! Praise the Lord Almighty! This is a pretty big deal. I mean, only have about four weeks of highschool left. ONLY FOUR! FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, PEOPLE! Hallelujah. I cannot express how happy I am about that. But now comes the big, important things I must decide upon. Clearly I have all my life to know what I truly want to do with it, but I’d like to at least have an idea of where I want go and what I want to do with my life. And now is the “appropriate” time to go to college. If you would have asked me two years ago if I had plans to attend a college, you would have received a big ol’ NO from me. But now that time has gone by and I have realized that in today’s society you pretty much have to have a college degree to even be considered a human being. So I have thought a lot about it and have decided that I shall go. But that doesn’t mean I have it all figured out. No, not even close! So what college do I want to attend? When do I start? How will I afford it? What in the hell do I even want to do?! These are all questions that flow in and out of my mind daily. Plus on top of all of that I have an opportunity to go live in Guyana, South America, at a children’s home for the summer. I would teach the kids, help them with their schooling, and bring to them the love I have found in Papa God. I would teach them about His heart. It’s all up in the air, but it’s still very exciting. Hopefully I will be able to make for sure plans soon. I think what is making me feel so crazy right now is just not knowing. The uncertaintly is killin’ me! I can do anything when I know what’s going on and have a plan. I’m a plans girl, I stick to the plan. So when it’s all up in the air and nothing is for sure yet, I simply just feel insane. It’s probably God’s way of testing me. Oh, what a sense of humor He has.
All I can do is trust, though that is one of the hardest things for me to do. But He always comes through and that’s all that matters. He will guide my steps. And He puts these desires in my heart of wanting to go to Guyana for the summer. Even though is scares the crap out of me, it’s my dream. And what is a dream if it doesn’t scare you, eh? So we’ll see. All I know is that I can feel good things coming. It has been a not-so-great season in my life for quite some time, and it’s time for some good to happen.
It’s time.
